Mommy plus Five

My 365...

~~~ Show me your vibe ~~~

With age comes sensitivity.  I am experiencing an extremely heightened sense of "being" in the past few months, the likes of which I have never experienced before.

I consider myself to be a sensitive person.  By nature, I am calm and easy spirited.  I have always been, and I pray I always will be. 

Throughout my life I have naturally repelled anyone who comes into my space who does not also represent calm.  Not to be rude, but I can not handle people without some sense of balance in their life.  Being "centered" is very important to me and my well being as it should be for everyone else.  Or so I would think.  That is why my room has always been a gathering place in my home.  My children and their friends have told me that it is a "calm" space.  "Yes, please check your 'type a' at the door.
 
Jack has always been relatively calm, which is what attracted me to him initially.  Well that and he looked really good in Wrangler jeans.  *grin*  In the past few years, he has started to demonstrate a more uneasy vibe for me so sadly we do not spend a lot of time together.  I love him dearly, but not so much his vibe.  He tends to be a very negative person.  Still trying to work out a way to deal with that.

With my sons, it has always been a calm, loving feeling.  Sure we have had our rocky moments, but when they walk into my space it is a feeling of warmth, peace and love.  Especially with Garrett.  Of all my sons, he has the most easy going calm spirit.  Fortunately for him, his love Kori is much the same.  Sweet, sensitive and fun.  They are a great balance.  <3

My daughter has an intense orb of energy.  As a child it was "busy."  I am not sure how else to describe her intensity other than saying "busy."  As she grew into a young woman, it became very heavy for me...almost unbearable at times.  This loud, in charge, in your face sort of aura that can be overwhelming.  I pray that as she enters into this new path of "motherhood" she is able to exhale and find her center.

So what is the point of this rant you ask?  Casey.  My son Case has forever been the sensitive, introspective son...until now.  When Casey walks into my room, he is preceded by an intense flash of energy that literally bowls me over.  I become tense, uneasy and irritated!  This breaks my heart. 

The hormones wreaking havoc on this teenage son of mine are so powerful.  I feel bad because after only a few seconds of his company I have to ask him to leave the room or I literally crash and burn!  It is like being hit head on by an out of control 18 wheeler barreling down hill in a snow storm!

"STOP"

What does all of this mean?  It means that mama has got to get her "ohmmm" in gear and work harder to center a very "off-center" son.

Everything is "emergent" and immediate for Casey.  I need a job NOW....I need a car NOW...I need to join the military NOW...I love this girl NOW...I need to see her NOW!  He  is running on full open throttle as if the world is going to end tomorrow.  How do you convince a 17 year old that he is just starting in this journey we call life?  "There will be a tomorrow son."  There will be more time to experience and discover all the things in life your heart desires.  It is not the end, it is only the beginning.

Breathe in....breathe out..... 

Every time I see him now I face him and give him some "ohmmmmm....."

"Mom!  Knock it off!"

"Ohmmmmmm"

"Mom...."

"Give me a hug son!"

"Mother....knock it off!!  You weirdo."

"I may be a weirdo, but this weirdo loves you."

"I know."

:O) 

He truly believes I have gone bonkers on him.  "ohmmmmm......"  But dude, lighten up!

I send this request out to the cosmos....please send me some energy!  I have a feeling I am going to need all the strength I can muster to make it through this stage of development with Case.

Moms, we walk such a fine line don't we?  Life is difficult enough keeping ourselves in the zone.  Now we are responsible for keeping all of those we love on the same peaceful plane of existence.  All this mama wishes for is success in sharing the "ohmmmmm".....

My Photos of the Day...

Dragon Fruit.  It pays having a husband in produce.  He introduces us to all the latest and greatest in the world of fruits...veggies and stuff.  :)

It is a bit expensive, but worth it.  Very juicy and sweet in flavor.  It is juicy like a watermelon, texture of a cantaloupe, looks a bit like a giant kiwi and has the slightest nutty after taste.  In a word...yummy!


"Woof...ohmmmmmm....."

Ducati waiting patiently for Casey to come home from sk8ting.  He worries about his boy too.
Music I am listening to today...Sting


Random Link of the Day...*Splash*

Until next time..."Honey, the sky's the limit!  No wait...there are footprints on the moon.  The moon is the limit!  And beyond.  No...there is no limit to the greatness that is you."

Have a great weekend!

Peace.

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